הרהורים

Well, anyway that's how it is registered in my brain. They're called "her-huriem" because that's what they are "things to think over and over and over".



I was young didn't know anything about how this world works (still don't know but am a bit more clever now that my "ex" manipulates his wants into my children's brains and I SEE that he does this).


I only wanted someone to love me - that time (and perhaps now as well, but I can't read my wants as clearly as I did then)



this is about a boy I really liked in the Netherlands (but forgot his name) who took to another girl... and thus all the slow dancing at the apartment of my one and ONLY true soulsister INGE - left me behind lonely. I wasn't devasted about it though, somehow...

annie rak ben-adam

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I am just human being...
Ik ben alleen maar mens....
אני רק בן-אדם

avocado's on a tree


pomegranate on a tree


humming tree (the tree makes a humming noise due to the little balls that are falling off it


he's turning his butt to me


he's teasing me


almost forming the shape of a heart


gossiping geese


he's listening


gossiping birdies


sandpiper


posing for the photo


da'awhinim


kissed by the sun


da'awinim


bird of paradise on fire


ficus benyamina - with fabulous roots


chinese fountain palm


tree playing with shadows


sandpiper taking a bath


sandpiper taking a bath con't


sandpiper taking a bath con't 2


sandpiper taking a bath ... enough!!


huge turtle staring at me as if saying hello


nile goose reflection


kingfisher silhouette


kingfisher silhouette 2 (playing with editing photos)


Moorhen reflection


Egret reflection


sandpiper


cormorant


a clever street cat

finally some good news...

not for myself personally but it still affects me more than I could ever think. I feel excited about this. I am so happy that a mother in Israel who has been living hell on earth is now going to be reunited with her child. there's NO stronger bond than a mother and a child (even if the child is misled by it's father orso, like in my case) and this truly touch my heart:

the release story (click)

hurt

first hurt by someone who i loved so intensely and thought that my love for him would reflect and mirror but the mirror was a different portrait all together and now hurt by my own children who were lured into his spell (though they will deny this vehemently).

made 29-9-2011

strange

that 2 postings simply disappeared. they were very personal and I had decided to delete them but when I was going to.... they simply weren't there. huh??

ok, update.

on the 19th I went on a 'shlichot' tour. we left close to 17:00 p.m. and I was back home again around 02:00 a.m.

photos:

THE WESTERN WALL:








NEAR RACHEL'S TOMB:




AND ALSO THERE, THIS TERRIBLE WALL.....3 METERS AWAY FROM THE TOMB (THIS IS NOT THE LANDSCAPE JACOB HAD IN MIND WHEN BURYING HIS BELOVED WIFE THERE, I IMAGINE)


NEAR THE TENT OF GILAD SHALIT'S PARENTS. IT QUESTIONS BIBI ON WHERE HE IS BECAUSE GILAD IS ALL ALONE BEING KEPT HOSTAGE:


on the 24th (of September) I made the following photos during my walk...

DRAMATIC SKIES


SAME ANGLE -PINHOLE VIEW


SHEDDING SKIN (ALMOST ALL TREES WERE.. )






PINHOLE LAKE (I CALL IT PINHOLE BECAUSE THAT'S THE PROGRAM I USED ON MY CAMERA)


I TOOK THIS PHOTO BECAUSE I FELT LIKE THESE CUT OFF BRANCHES LOOKED LIKE THEY WERE BLEEDING...


CLOUDED SUN (IT WAS A NICE WEEKEND - THE YOREH HAD FALLEN AND THOUGH IT STILL WAS WARM AND SO THERE CERTAINLY WAS A SENSE OF CRISPINESS IN THE AIR)


THE PHOTOS OF THE 25TH (OF SEPTEMBER, EARLY SUNDAY MORNING BEFORE WORK AND LATER POURING WITH RAIN)

THIS IS MY PLACE. GO AWAY....



JUST SITTING HERE RESTING...


AND FROM ANOTHER MODE:


I ALSO AM JUST RESTING... WHY DO PEOPLE KEEP ON TAKING PICTURES OF ME???




KLAAS IN THE MEANWHILE WAS WAITING PATIENTLY FOR ME...


AND THEN............ I DISCOVERED THE "BURST" MODE ON MY CAMERA... HAVE A LOOK:














Photos of Thursday I will place tomorrow...